yesterday

i was entertaining the thought of calling the whole thing off. i mean, i should be happy and certain and not second-guessing all the time. i deserve that much.

i want someone who wants to be with me, who wants to spend time with me, who WANTS me to be with him, who makes the effort.

not someone who goes off by himself without telling anyone. wihout telling me!

but then today, he's making up for it. and i love him all over again.

the cycle of whine continues.