i'm pondering

over the question of cutting off all ties.

it's something that i'd tried to do in the past weeks but have failed miserably.

because every time i talk to him, i always end up angry or feel bad about myself.

that can't be good.

common sense tells me that i need to make a clean break, take the time to heal and if i want to, continue the friendship once i feel better about myself.

but more and more, i'm questioning whether it is a friendship worth saving.

his actions and behaviour are making me question whether he is worth being friends with.

i mean, what am i really losing by not befriending him?

love? he doesn't love me.
care? he doesn't care about me.
friendship? he hasn't been a good friend at all lately. he hasn't been a friend, period.

the person that he is now, it's not someone that i'd care about.

so is he really worth it even as a friend?

i need to search myself for that answer.